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Metalhead Turns 40

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When I was 10 I had some sort of vision, dream, sighting, whatever, that I would be dead by 40.  It stuck in my head all these years.  Since that year, I was never one to want to celebrate my birthday.  One reason is because of the silly fanfare that comes with such things.  I mean really, it is just another day.  While I don’t celebrate, I always call my mom and thank her for having me.

I don’t mind celebrating other people’s birthdays.  If they feel the need to make an event for it, I’m in.  We humans are social creatures after all.  This year I decided to throw myself a 40th birthday party.  To be truthful I’m uncomfortable about the whole thing.  I think it’s a bit narcissistic.  I probably am to some degree anyway.

But to be honest, I really never did think I’d make it to 40.  Well, it’s still 3 days away so there’s still time to not make it.  If for some oddball reason I didn’t make it to forty, at least I’d die with no regrets.  I’ve lived a pretty good life.  Accomplished almost everything I ever wanted to.  Lived and loved.  It’s been a good run.

If I make it to Saturday (2/27), then I’ll have to come up with a new game plan.  Especially with my 30s being a pretty incredible decade, the best one so far.  I’ve always lived as if this day or week is my last.  No matter what some silly vision I had 30 years says, today just could be the one. We have little control over that.

In the end, happy birthday to me.  It’s been nice knowing you.

UP THE IRONS.

Written by The Metal Files

February 24, 2010 at 12:36 pm