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Metalhead Turns 40

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When I was 10 I had some sort of vision, dream, sighting, whatever, that I would be dead by 40.  It stuck in my head all these years.  Since that year, I was never one to want to celebrate my birthday.  One reason is because of the silly fanfare that comes with such things.  I mean really, it is just another day.  While I don’t celebrate, I always call my mom and thank her for having me.

I don’t mind celebrating other people’s birthdays.  If they feel the need to make an event for it, I’m in.  We humans are social creatures after all.  This year I decided to throw myself a 40th birthday party.  To be truthful I’m uncomfortable about the whole thing.  I think it’s a bit narcissistic.  I probably am to some degree anyway.

But to be honest, I really never did think I’d make it to 40.  Well, it’s still 3 days away so there’s still time to not make it.  If for some oddball reason I didn’t make it to forty, at least I’d die with no regrets.  I’ve lived a pretty good life.  Accomplished almost everything I ever wanted to.  Lived and loved.  It’s been a good run.

If I make it to Saturday (2/27), then I’ll have to come up with a new game plan.  Especially with my 30s being a pretty incredible decade, the best one so far.  I’ve always lived as if this day or week is my last.  No matter what some silly vision I had 30 years says, today just could be the one. We have little control over that.

In the end, happy birthday to me.  It’s been nice knowing you.


Written by The Metal Files

February 24, 2010 at 12:36 pm

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  1. Lenny Gonzalez

    February 24, 2010 at 1:18 pm

  2. Wow, Sean….that actually left me a little misty-eyed. A world without you would be incredibly sad indeed and I, for one, am honored that I’ve been able to share just a smidgen of your life with you. <3

    Happy, happy Birthday, Sean.

    Heart ya. Mean it.


    February 25, 2010 at 8:00 am

  3. happy birthday dude many happy returns. Remember our boys in maiden are all well over 40 (I think nicko is 53) and they are still producing some of their best music & certainly their best ribs…lol…
    I’m not far in age from you and my wife just turned 47 and hell If you were anything like me you were shocked when you made it to 30

    this reminds me of what the great Mike Watt said to me when i had the chance to hang out with him years ago

    “when you’re in your 20’s you’re supposed to be stupid,
    when you’re in your 30’s you pay for the stuff you did in your 20’s,
    when you hit 40 you really start to understand what’s going on
    that’s when your body starts to go….’
    then he laughed like a grizzled sea captain & slapped my back


    February 25, 2010 at 8:40 am

  4. yeah, this wasn’t meant to sound all mopey and depressing. i’m happy to be alive, just never thought i’d make it this far. no complaints. just looks like i have more things to do!

    all is well.

    Sean (The Metal Files)

    February 25, 2010 at 11:02 am

  5. Only the good die young. You my friend, will be around for a LONG time yet! Hahahahahaha!!!!! Have a good birthday on Saturday.


    February 25, 2010 at 11:09 am

  6. Happy Metal Birthday Sean! You know, in my mind I feel like I’m 17, think like I’m… well older than that. My body, well, it feels like it’s getting old in the morning and at night… during the day it gives me mileage I need. I like your way of thinking… LIVE FOR TODAY MAN!

    As long as Lemmy can still do what he is doing… I’m not gonna complain about bringing out the damned garbage. Enjoy yourself on Saturday.



    February 25, 2010 at 11:04 pm

  7. Happy birthday, Sean.

    Metal Mark

    February 26, 2010 at 9:03 am

  8. We’re the same age.
    I can’t believe I’m in my forties now.

    Anyways, kinda belated, but…I hope you had a nice birthday.

    I just found your site. You have good taste in music!


    March 19, 2010 at 7:47 am

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